Sometimes in life, you don't really get a choice. If you've been around me lately, you know what I'm talking about. That's right; I'm talking about my brand new, sexy air cast. I tore my calf muscle in my left leg (don't ask), and I've been sporting this awesome boot ever since.
But that's not really what I want to tell you about. What I want to tell you about is the near emotional breakdown I had right after it happened. After my lovely 4 hour trip to the ER, I realized that there was NO WAY I was going to make it to work on Monday. Or Tuesday. Or maybe even Wednesday. I anticipated that it might feel like a snow day....but no-I was panicked. I NEED to be working! What about the group I'm planning, and my clients, and the two classes I'm teaching? Who is going to do all that!?
So, as I sat on my couch, flipping out, I called a wise friend. And she said, "Jess, you just have to surrender to this". Boy, did I ever. I resisted those words. No way, I thought, I just have to push through. But an hour later, when the pain was at its worst, I decided she was right. White Flag, people-I surrender.
Now that I'm feeling better and back in the game, this process is fascinating me. Clearly I reached a point where the choice to fight life was just not going to be an option....and when I surrendered to this situation, something happened....a quiet kind of calm overtook me. And I relaxed.
I encourage all of us to think about this concept of surrendering....what are you fighting? What's in your control? What's beyond you? And what can you gain by letting go?
In the meantime, you'll see me hobbling around...with my white flag held high.
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